Day 197 – Growing Old

I went to see the movie with my in-laws called Quartet.  It is a sweet story about a retirement home for musicians and performers set in the gorgeous English countryside.  It is always wonderful to see older people being active.  Granted movie old people seem more energetic than real life older people but nevertheless life clearly does not end at 55.  While my in-laws tend to be very sedentary they are not necessarily the norm.  Their retirement community has a wide mix of frail and spry.  My parents community in Walnut Creek, CA has an incredible number of very active people.  Any one of these active elderly people could have been depicted in this movie.  Which all made me realize something very important; I want to get old.  Bet you didn’t see that coming.

Getting old always used to scare me.  You get old and things hurt.  You get old and you get sick.  Stuff you take for granted when you are young seems to be a challenge when you are older. Being older means you can’t do things.  I could never envision myself getting old because I could never envision myself not being active.  But, the more I think about it the more I realize that I will always be active.  I could easily be one of those people in the movie.  The problem is that I need to live long enough to get old.  So surviving now has a whole new meaning.  Surviving means getting old.  I want to get old and be frail and go to bingo and reminisce about the times that nobody else remembers except me.  Remember the time when….

I have been feeling much more energetic.  The problem is that as I become more energetic, I do more things.  I do more things and I get tired in ways that I never used to get tired.  I yawn at 3PM.  I want to take a nap.  I want to relax.  I am not used to being tired.  The great news is that I am feeling much better.  The bad news is that I don’t have as much energy as I used to.  It is hard to say whether my energy level is increasing because it is masked by the extreme sport that is my life.  I guess I would rather get tired from doing too much than to get tired from not doing enough.